A Ladybug's Journey

Last week's weight in was rough.  I gained 2 lbs.  I gained.   I gained.  Somehow writing it doesn't make it sink in any more than it did when it happened.  It doesn't feel right.  I was doing so good last week.  I tracked everything, I was active - well, more active than the week before.  I guess the two bad days from the first week caught up to me. Guess what though?  I didn't cry.  I didn't self hate.  I didn't put myself down.  Instead I turned around, marched to the wall with all the WW products to buy and I got myself the new WW 360 kit and an ActiveLink.  The kit is pretty cool, but my favorite two features are the 12 week tracker and the Success Guide.  It's written by someone who's lost weight successfully on Weight Watchers, THREE times!  Yeah, I know, I thought that first.  If she lost it three times, how is it working for her?  Well, the second and third times were after having children.  I like per perspectives, and the honest way she writ

Hello, my name is Alex, and I'm a food addict. That's how I feel. Like there should be a food anonymous or something. Unlike other addictions (alcohol, drugs, gambling) there's no way to avoid or quit this addiction cold turkey. We need food to survive, no matter how you look at it. The last few days I'm been trying to notice how often I think of food. It's a lot. I mean, an exhausting amount of time. If it's a meal time (which is a lot more than I'm accustomed to if I'm eating all my WW points), then I'm thinking about what I'm eating. After I eat I'm logging what I eat, both for WW and for my doctor, so double tracking. When I get home I also enter everything from my paper tracker to the computer. When I get home from work I cook dinner and before bed I prepare meals (breakfast/lunch/snacks) for the next day. The next morning I pack up all that I prepared the night before. In between all of that, even while I'm working, part of my m

I had my first weight in today.  I lost 1.8 lbs.  I was hoping for an even 2, however this was not an easy week at all and I am very proud with what I accomplished. I had a very very rough day this week, and I resorted to eating to make myself feel better.  While it did make me feel better in the moment, in the long run, it did not.  However, I am proud of myself in that I wrote down EVERYTHING that I ate all week, even when it put me over points.  You know what?  The world didn't end.  It didn't stop turning.  And the best part?  I got up in the morning with a clean slate.  I put the day before behind me and moved on.  I learned that every morning is a reset, a clean slate.  It's a good feeling. Jessy is going to start WW.  He's still trying to figure out if he's going to go at it online, or at meetings with me.  For now I've changed my meetings from Saturday mornings to Friday afternoons, since I'll be working massive amounts of OT the next month... 8

Went to my first meeting this morning.  I was pleasantly surprised to know that my starting weight is actually 2 lbs lighter than I thought.  I updated all the info on here to reflect my 'official' WW starting weight.  I have a long way to go, but right now I'm just focusing on my first 5 lbs. Tonight is hurdle #1.  We're celebrating Jessy's birthday.  I've made southwestern egg rolls (yes, like Chili's, but these are baked), jalapeno popper dip, lil smokies in Sweet Baby Rays, and a coke cake.  Jill's making lil smokies in brown sugar, butter and croissants and Rika is making something else, I'm sure just as bad as the rest.  I commit to myself to keep track of everything that I eat.  I still have 25 pp (PointsPlus) left for today, and there's the weekly allowance that I can use also, but I'm going to try not to use those if I can help it.  I'm going to only eat until I'm satisfied, and have a few drinks.  It's going to be an i

This afternoon I did it.  I joined weight watchers, just like I said I would.  I joined online, bought a monthly pass.  I'll be going to my first meeting tomorrow morning, having my first weigh in.  I'll update my starting weight, since the weight watchers weigh ins will be my 'official' scale.  Also, I'll only be weighing myself at those weekly weigh ins. Jessy says that he's going to join Weight Watchers with me, but online.  He doesn't want to go to the meetings.  That's okay.  I know that I need the meetings, and I'm doing this for me, not anyone else. Mom is going to start on a sample dress for me soon.  It's going to be a sample of my wedding dress, in a less expensive fabric and in a larger size.  It's going to be something for me to work on getting into, and then for us to see if there's anything that I don't like about the style or anything else.  I think having that here, to look at every day, will be a huge motivator on

I'm 30 years old. I have not been happy with my weight for as long as I can remember. Yes, I have a family history.  No, that is not an excuse - not anymore. I take 4 prescription medications a day. I want to get married.  I want to look back at my wedding photos with a smile on my face, not wishing that I looked different.  I don't want there to be a longing for what could have been. I want to have kids.  I want to be able to run around with them, jump on a trampoline, climb onto an inner tube, or do anything else that they want to do.  I want to teach them good eating habits. I want to be the person that I know I can be. My role model: My younger sister. She was unhappy with herself, with her weight.  She dedicated her mind to it, and she's been able to loose weight, in a healthy way, and she ENJOYS running.  I want to do that.  I will do that. I want to run in a marathon with my sister. There's no excuse.  No one cooks my food but me.  No one buys my food