Catching Up
Last week's weight in was rough. I gained 2 lbs. I gained. I gained. Somehow writing it doesn't make it sink in any more than it did when it happened. It doesn't feel right. I was doing so good last week. I tracked everything, I was active - well, more active than the week before. I guess the two bad days from the first week caught up to me.
Guess what though? I didn't cry. I didn't self hate. I didn't put myself down. Instead I turned around, marched to the wall with all the WW products to buy and I got myself the new WW 360 kit and an ActiveLink. The kit is pretty cool, but my favorite two features are the 12 week tracker and the Success Guide. It's written by someone who's lost weight successfully on Weight Watchers, THREE times! Yeah, I know, I thought that first. If she lost it three times, how is it working for her? Well, the second and third times were after having children. I like per perspectives, and the honest way she writes. It really feels like she is talking just to me, like she wrote the guide for my eyes only.
The Success Guide is filled with a lot of things that don't apply to me right now, like getting over a plateau and such, but it will all apply to me, probably several times, before I'm done with this journey.\
I'm still in the assessment phase with the ActiveLink, so I'll get back to you on what it's all about. For now I'm just wearing it all day, every day, for three more days.
Besides weight loss, it's been a rough couple of weeks. Working 8 hours a day, 7 days a week is rough. It's beginning to take it toll on me. I'm finally taking a day off, but not until Sunday. And then I'll go back to work for another 6 days, a day off, then only a FIVE day work week! I'm so excited. I'm looking forwards to February 9h for three reasons. (1) It will be the first full weekend I've had off in over a month. (2) It'll be Jill's birthday. (3) Some friends and I are going to a casino to see a comedian and hang out. It will be a lot of fun. We don't get together outside of work enough.
I'm also trying to refocus on PartyLite. I actually should be getting a call from my leader any moment. I don't know why, but I just can't make myself pick up the phone and call potential hostesses. I have to do it. Really I do. I don't know why I feel that I can't, it's like there's some kind of wall up that I need to break though. It's the same fear of failure I'm sure. Again, if I don't try I will fail, but if I try and fail it's on someone's else's terms. uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's so frustrating feeling like this.
I haven't even listened to the recorded weekly conference calls in a month... I'm slacking so bad. have to get back on the ball.
Jessy made popcorn. It smells like popcorn in the house - yuuummmyyyy... Oh, and I have friggin 18 points left for the day. How am I going to eat that much in less than an hour? I definitely did not snack enough today.
Guess what though? I didn't cry. I didn't self hate. I didn't put myself down. Instead I turned around, marched to the wall with all the WW products to buy and I got myself the new WW 360 kit and an ActiveLink. The kit is pretty cool, but my favorite two features are the 12 week tracker and the Success Guide. It's written by someone who's lost weight successfully on Weight Watchers, THREE times! Yeah, I know, I thought that first. If she lost it three times, how is it working for her? Well, the second and third times were after having children. I like per perspectives, and the honest way she writes. It really feels like she is talking just to me, like she wrote the guide for my eyes only.
The Success Guide is filled with a lot of things that don't apply to me right now, like getting over a plateau and such, but it will all apply to me, probably several times, before I'm done with this journey.\
I'm still in the assessment phase with the ActiveLink, so I'll get back to you on what it's all about. For now I'm just wearing it all day, every day, for three more days.
Besides weight loss, it's been a rough couple of weeks. Working 8 hours a day, 7 days a week is rough. It's beginning to take it toll on me. I'm finally taking a day off, but not until Sunday. And then I'll go back to work for another 6 days, a day off, then only a FIVE day work week! I'm so excited. I'm looking forwards to February 9h for three reasons. (1) It will be the first full weekend I've had off in over a month. (2) It'll be Jill's birthday. (3) Some friends and I are going to a casino to see a comedian and hang out. It will be a lot of fun. We don't get together outside of work enough.
I'm also trying to refocus on PartyLite. I actually should be getting a call from my leader any moment. I don't know why, but I just can't make myself pick up the phone and call potential hostesses. I have to do it. Really I do. I don't know why I feel that I can't, it's like there's some kind of wall up that I need to break though. It's the same fear of failure I'm sure. Again, if I don't try I will fail, but if I try and fail it's on someone's else's terms. uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's so frustrating feeling like this.
I haven't even listened to the recorded weekly conference calls in a month... I'm slacking so bad. have to get back on the ball.
Jessy made popcorn. It smells like popcorn in the house - yuuummmyyyy... Oh, and I have friggin 18 points left for the day. How am I going to eat that much in less than an hour? I definitely did not snack enough today.
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